This is one of the first pieces of music I finished that I really liked and felt proud of. Still bangs.
The violin was played by Amanda Håøy Horn. We recorded it in my old bedroom in Outremont in (probably) 2015. I kind of sang what I wanted her to play, and she nailed it first take every single time.
This kind of abstract, sound-design heavy music was a large part of what I was trying to create at that time, but I found it hard to finish pieces because I kept losing my way with the arrangements. I hadn’t developed the instinct for finishing tunes. The confidence to flow. So I’d make dancy tunes like Marmonies on the side, but somehow actually finish them because they weren’t ‘my real tunes.’
It’s funny how time changes things. These days, once I have an idea (and maybe a lyric), I know the tune will get finished. It’s just a matter of time. And I find arranging free-flowing impressionistic pieces incredibly intuitive, perhaps easiest of all. On the other hand, I don’t have a clue how to make a simple ‘it repeats’ dance tune anymore. I lose my way with the arrangements.
Every learning is also an unlearning. You can’t go down every path or develop every skill at once. And doubt is full of possibilities that confidence can overlook.